Today's entry will be a bit long due to the quite heavy content that is about to fill up this space >< .
I remember saying I will post 4 things.
1 - What I wrote in my diary for Entry 26.
2 - What my Chinese Literature teacher said after my group's presentation.
3 - Entry 28.
4 - Alee's elder sister's wedding.
Okaez...
I cannot really remember what about the wedding that I wanted to post but well, all the pictures were already uploaded ;) .
Maybe I'll remember again.
>< there's definitely something I wanna write about but didn't and now I can't remember.
Awesome memory.
So...
I am gonna start off with what's written in my Entry 26.
Hehz.
I am contemplating whether to rephrase what I wrote, or just type out what I wrote.
Then again, if I type out what I wrote, it'd be like might as well take picture and post right?
Then again !
That might make reading difficult and so.
I have decided to settle on typing it out and making changes where necessary.
So here it goes ;) .
9 July 2012, Monday.
@7.56PM
Weather: Quite warm in the evening I think, I forgot >< !
Mood: Just bathed, quite okaez.
Dear Diary,
I noticed that I'm always hesitant to write down my emotions when it's not towards the depressed side. I don't dare to put that I'm happy, because I'm afraid that the moment I say it, something will screw up again.
This is the second entry of the day. At this rate, this diary must just be the first diary that I finished using in a year. I realize that I'm quite afraid to read back on my past entries for fear that something I read might spark me off to be unbalance again. Is this the feeling? Having a fear of your own past?
Actually, I'm writing this entry because of something I saw on Twitter. It's a quote that goes "Love can be the greatest feeling, but it can also end up being the worst." Personally, I disagree. Because love is, by far, the strongest emotion and probably the best.
People often think that love is a horrible thing because they've been hurt in a relationship. Love, an emotion itself can never hurt. What hurt are the lies, anger, disappointment, fear, etc, that come with it. It's really saddening to see people saying that there's no true love or they don't believe in love just because they are faced with those negative emotions they once felt in the relationship they were in.
Personally, I am not a saint, an expert in relationship because well, up to this moment, I haven't been handling my relationships well. But I can be sure that love is not, and never will be a bad feeling. One only thinks it becomes a bad feeling because of the other negative emotions. Once again, I emphasize that love itself is a wonderful emotion to indulge in.
As for those who keep telling themselves that there's no such thing as true love, I am at a loss of what to say. I can only say, I find it ridiculous. Without love, true love, they wouldn't even have the chance to say that there isn't true love in this world. Their mindset on the issue of love is really shallow. It's like when "love" is mentioned, they can only think about the love in boy-girl-relationship. What about the other kinds of love? Parental love? Love for animals? Love for nature? Love from friends? And for religious people, the love from their Gods? Aren't those under the word "love" as well?
Another point that I would like to bring across is that, just because your girlfriend or boyfriend cheated on you or let you down in one way or another mean that the whole population belonging to that gender should be labelled as cheaters. I really hate it when people put up on their social media page that all girls / guys are liars / cheaters etc. Everyone is different and one person's actions do not represent the whole population.
Lastly is the fact that there's this famous quote that says girls always friendzone the good guys, go fo the bad guys, then complain that there's no good guys because they had their hearts broken. This is another hilarious yet infuriating quote. Because obviously, not all girls are in that situation. If the good guy did put in a lot of effort and in the end the girl still go for the jerk knowing he's one then yes, she probably deserve it when her heart is broken. The thing is, before she got her heart broken, here are a few possibilities that could lead to why she went for the jerk.
- The good guy was nice and all, but if he didn't confess to the girl, how is the girl supposed to know that he likes her? I mean, come on, no one is a mind reader. And plus, if a girl falls in love with every single guy that treats her well, how many time is she supposed to fall in love? And how many time is she supposed to fall in love at one time?
- It is said that girls always go for the jerk. What if, she doesn't know that the guy is a jerk?
- Feelings cannot be forced. A guy can't expect a girl to fall in love with him just because they're being Mr. Nice.
Sigh, although it's not as though writing this is gonna change anyone's mindset or whatever but well at least, I'm voicing out my own opinion. =) . With this, I shall conclude this entry with another quote I saw on Twitter as well.
"No one ever gets tired of love, everyone gets tired of waiting, assuming, hearing lies, saying sorry and hurting."I write like a pro,
AnnWai @ 8.42PM.
PS: Love's beautiful, so beautiful.
Generally, that's what I wrote in my diary for Entry 26.
And now for the next part, which is what my teacher said after my group's presentation.
So, I guess I have to start off with what my group presented.
Hmmz, it's about this poem called 《再别康桥》written by 徐志摩。
Basically, it's just a poem where the poet wrote about the scenery when he's leaving that place called 康桥。
This poet's love life consist of three women.
The first in which he was forced to married because of the old society where parents arranged marriages for their child that would benefit the house's business.
The second woman which he loved with his whole entire life.
And the third in which he eventually remarried with.
We presented the analysis for the poem, as well as a short biography of the poet and told the class about his love life.
After the presentation, before the teacher opened her blog to show us what 康桥 looks like, she told us more about the love story of the second woman who the poet loved so much.
What happened was, the woman and the poet dated back then.
And their affair was being discovered by the poet's wife.
He requested for a divorce and they eventually split.
But the second woman went back to China.
Afraid of losing the woman he loved so much, he followed her back to China, only to realize that she decided to marry another man, who I shall name as Alpha.
Alpha, is the son of a teacher that the poet respected a lot.
Now for this women, her love life consist of Alpha and another man, Beta.
My teacher told us that this woman loved two men in her whole life.
And the two men are Alpha and Beta.
Even when she is married to Alpha, she was honest with him that she loved Beta as well.
Instead of getting angry, Alpha told her that if she wish to be with Beta, he would let her go, because he love her so much and he wants her to be happy.
The woman then told Beta what Alpha told her.
Upon hearing that, Beta told her to stick with him because he can see that Alpha really loves her.
At a point of time, Beta shifted to Alpha and the woman's house and lived with them.
Beta and the woman never developed more than just friendship even though they were staying under the same roof.
Now the woman had a frequent gathering that consisted of people discussing about literature stuffs like poems and prose.
徐志摩 was one of the people who loved literature a lot and attended the gathering.
Until one day, the plane that he took crashed, while he was on his way to attend the gathering.
Upon hearing that, the woman rushed to the scene of the accident, picked up a piece of the plane wreck and placed it hear the place where she slept, as a remembrance of him.
Before the woman died, she told her children that they must treat Beta like their own family member and take care of him.
And even after the woman died, Beta still celebrated her birthdays.
Hmmz, what I typed may not be able to touch you, but when my teacher told me the story, tears were already preparing themselves to rush out of my eyes.
“以前的感情很简单，喜欢就是喜欢，爱就是爱。”That was what my teacher added on.
I don't think I need to elaborate on the contrast between relationships then and relationships between kids nowadays, or even, adults who think the affairs of the hearts are jokes.
Feelings aren't toys.
With that, I end today's post.
;) .
I will continue with what's on my Entry 28 and Alee's sister's wedding in one of the entries that will come, muahahahaz, I don't dare say next entry le ;x .
6 days more.
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