Fuck My Fucking Life.

Do anyone have any idea of how much life is constantly draining me off?

I really need an ice cold beer at this moment now actually.
Really.
Because beer amplifies my emotions, be it happiness or sadness.
Being slightly drunk gives me the courage to do things I never got the courage to do while sober.
To say things that I wanna say when I am sober.

I came home to my room, where the pillows I slept on scattered on the floor.
With my bed slanted to the max.
To snack wrappers and papers on the floor.
The creator of this mess?
My cute little brother.
He even screwed up the book I borrowed from my boyfriend for him to read.
Asked him what happened, he said he don't know.
I don't know what the fucking hell is wrong with his attitude but I am so pissed off with life.

Transport fees are ever rising.
As tertiary STUDENTS, we have to pay ADULT fares.
Because our dearest government will suffer a lost of few millions should they give concession to us TERTIARY STUDENTS.
Not only are we paying more, the quality of the transport in Singapore is ever going down.
First come the usual packed buses, a few same buses of the same service numbers coming at the same time.
Now comes the unexpected and random train breakdowns from time to time.
First class transport?
Bullshit.
SMRT and SBS decided to spend huge amount of money on Mers buses, design new buses.
Yet the number of seats on the buses are pathetic.
And they can seriously build double deck buses instead of single decks.

Another point I would like to add on to my ranting today is.
I fucking hate being a girl.

Do you know how it feels when you have cramps in your womb once every month for an average of 5 days?
Some girls may be lucky enough to feel no pain at all when they have period.
Some girls are lucky enough because their period last for 3 days.
BUT for girls like me who feel immense pain for an average of 5 days during our period, it's damn fucking frustrating.

So girls have to go through period pain where blood flows out from the vaginal during puberty until menopause.
And girls have to go through pain when they have sex for the first time.
When guys fuck around, people think the guy is cool, the guy is imba, can sleep around with so many girls.
But when girls lose their virginity or sleeps around with guys?
They are known as whore, sluts or bitches.
IS IT EVEN FAIR?
When guys fuck around, they don't have to worry about pain, pregnancy, or the consequence.
Let's think this way.
If one day, guys will get pregnant and they are the ones who have to go through abortion.
They are the one who bleed every month.
They are the one who bleed when they have sex for the first time.
Will they cherish their virginity more?
Will they think twice before letting their lust take over their mind?
And they're not the ones who have to spend money on bras and pads.
They're not the ones who gets laughed at so often for being fat and being left on the shelf.

I hate being a girl.
I hate being a girlfriend who have to worry about her boyfriend viewing the profile of other girls on Facebook, or watching porn when he tells her he's going to sleep, or the moment he reaches home.
I hate being a girl of a boyfriend who loves beer and bubbletea and everytime he drinks bubbletea, she will be reminded of how he thinks his ex is occupying his thought more than bubbletea.
Or everytime when he drinks SHE HAVE TO FUCKING WORRY ABOUT HIM HAVING DAIBETES BECAUSE HE FUCKING KNOWS NO HOW TO CONTROL THE SUGAR LEVEL.
OR HIS FUCKING LIVER BECAUSE OF ALCOHOL INTAKE.

I am sick of all this shit.
I am sick o being a girl.
When I was young, I keep saying I wanna be a girl if I have a next life.
But fuck lahz, if I have to be a girl who has low IQ, looks ugly, and comes from a not rich family I fucking rather not be a girl.

I am so sick of relationships, so sick of being a girl.
So sick of having periods, so sick of trying to have to set aside money to buy pads and bras and liners and all the shits girls need like cosmetics and stuff.
Fuck my fucking life seriously.

To guys who treat girls like junk, fuck yourself k?
I hope your dick gets chop off soon.