i am just me.

"Do unto others, what you want others to do unto you."

I am not a saint, but I have been trying my best to live by my morals.
Whatever that I want people to do for me, I do for them.

I want people to understand me, and so I try to understand them.
I want people to not judge me, and so I don't judge people.
I want people to accept me for who I am, and so I accept people for who they are.

Yesterday, before we both fell asleep, Dar asked me, "You know I love you right? I bet you don't know, that's why you keep getting angry with me."

Dar, I know you love me.
I definitely know.
It's not that I don't know you're trying.

I keep getting angry with you, that's what you see, but, I guess, if you try putting yourself in my shoes, you'd understand why I get angry with you.

We're a couple, right?
Be it, during the good times, or the bad times, we're still a couple, right?
Albeit I only feel like we're a couple during the good times.
When we're going through our bad times, I don't know what we are.
"The most familiar strangers" would perhaps, be the best description to depict us when we're caught up in those bad times.

While I know I have a bad temper, I have been trying to control it.
While I know you're a grown-up, I am trying to understand you.

I am not trying to hide in the comfort zone of "I am still a teenager" .
What I am trying to mean when I say, "I am not an adult yet" is that, I am still not mature enough to match your mindset because I haven't have enough life experience to think the way you do.
You have to give me time to explore this world, this society.
To give me time and accept the fact that sometimes, I am just of a different frequency.

After all, everyone has their own individual way of thinking.
Which is why everyone is unique in their own special way.

A relationship isn't just about saying "I love you" or winning in the war of "Who love who more".
Honestly, I can do without those "I love you" and sweet nothings.
What I care more about is how the both of us try to maintain this relationship.

I have heard about couples not voicing out about how much they love each other.
But everyone can see that they're in love, because of the way they behave and the things they're willing to give up for each other.
In additional, "I love you" would have much more value in them when they hear it from each other once in a purple (yeahz, not blue but purple) moon.

I am not asking for much sacrifices from you.
I wish we could just talk like friends.
You know, sometimes, about us, and find a remedy for the problems we face.
Be it in our relationship, our friendships, or just our personal life.

I wish I could have that little more understanding from you.