Sandwiched between falling in and out of love.

There is no doubt that I am over-using the word 'tired'.

But that word is nothing but mere understatement of how I feel.

I wonder if there's a word to replace, "tired to the point where I wish to shut off from this world forever and always".

It's depressing.

How I am sad, but the first to make me smile is not him.

But his grandma.

Tsktsk, a small gesture like translating what she said from Hokkien to Chinese at the thought that I might not understand what she said, made me smile in my heart.

Her smile.

Her actions.

She is beautiful.

;) .

Day by day, I am falling in love.

Day by day, I am falling out of love.

I don't know what I am feeling.

If you get what I mean.

Always the first to make me cry.

Seldom the first to make me smile.