Why can't I just learn from past mistakes?

All the guys I like.

Always say that I am too clingy.

Opaque don't wanna marry Yeezi because he's afraid of commitment.

Jared said he feels as though I want him around all the time.

Eddie said he don't have the strength to bring us through, and yea, I probably am what, restricting him from going out with him friends.

Alee said I am putting pressure on him.

I feel as though I am a burden now.

Because I just keep on pressurizing everyone I love.

Friends, boyfriends.

Saw a quote on Facebook from HpLyrikz.

It's like this.

"Don't ask me why I am treating you cold. I'm not. I just quit trying and expecting. I'm tired of getting my hopes up and getting disappointed."

At that moment, I suddenly feel guilt stabbing through me.

When Eddie turned cold to me, I guess it was out of disappointment.

My temper, the way I handle situations.

And now that Alee is cold to me, I guess he had his fair share too.

Of my temper and all.

Perhaps he don't have any hopes for me anymore.

Because he's tired of getting disappointed.

I don't know how to salvage the situation.

I'm trying hard, but I'm tired of trying alone.
I'm afraid to try alone.

But in the end, it all comes down to the conclusion that I deserve it, isn't it?

Because I just cannot handle situations without flaring up.

And each and every single time, by the time I realize it, it's too late.

And I have already lost my friends, my boyfriend.

I deserved to be torched.

And sent to the basement of Hell.

I shouldn't even be given the rights to complain about anything.

I am filled with flaws.

Flaws that no one can accept.