Camped until sleepy.

3.23PM.
Unknowingly, I've sat in front of the computer screen since the time I woke up.
And I have managed to finish what I have been working on.
Even so, I don't feel any better.
Why am I feeling this way?

There are some things where it's better to not know about.

Feeling sleepy now.
Should I sleep?

3.33PM.
Suddenly, it dawn on me why I don't feel any better even after finishing what I have been working on.
Because I realize, nothing might work.

In other words, I am just extremely depressed now.
And I wish you're here to hug me.

4.32PM.
Just bathed, gonna start work.
Happened to watch a video I watched near 3 years ago.
Never fail to touched me.

For those who watched Crayon ShinChan, this might just make you understand why.
;) .

Then again, a lot of things sparks off my tears easily.
So >< you might not have the same reaction as I do.
The words in this video are in Japanese and traditional Chinese characters.
So take your time to slowly read ;D .





4.49PM.
"Ne, friends... no, relationships, be it romance, friendship or kinship. There are bound to be problems along the way more often than not. However, just a reminder, girl, that we humans are creatures who would choose to remember hatred than love, prefering, oddly, to preserve memories of distasteful events to the sweeter ones. (......) I would like you to keep in mind that, if you really though back, you'd realise how friends have cheered us on and encouraged us more often than these petty disagreements. At our age, we tend to do things rashly out of anger, and even saying things which, if we actually thought back, would cause our hearts to sink.

No matter who is in the wrong, I believe an apology is needed to resolve things. (......) Now, think of this current problem. Would it be better if one of you took a step back, and actually apologised?

The only thing that stops us from saying 'sorry', is that, we are afraid that if the other party doesn't accept it, it is... 'over', so to speak. But sometimes, more often than not, you'll feel much better if you've apologised. Friendships can be repaired easily if the damage done is given the earliest possible attention. (......)

Romance side, I can't really help, cos'... I'm a real failure at that though. Hah! But don't worry, as for me, I'll let nature take its course. ^^;"

Maybe I should just print this word of advice out.
And bring it wherever I go ;) .

4.59PM.
Before I really really start on my work.

"Promise. For certain promises, we as self-centered homo sapiens may choose to ignore, hoping that eventually overtime, it would be forgotten, and sometimes unknowingly, or even intentionally cause emotional hurt to the other party. For others, we may find it so ever important to keep, and hence fulfill these promises for they hold an important place in our heart.

Promises are, if I were to find a metaphor for it, bridges, no, building blocks for this bridge called 'trust'. Trust binds two people together, while the quality of these building blocks results in the strength of this trust. Hence, 'neglection' of these blocks would form a weak trust, and in due course, the two people would soon find themselves drifting further and farther away. Vice versa, nothing more, nothing less."

Trying to let the message sink in.

But you know something?

I feel better after reading this.

Thank you to whoever wrote this ;) .