Hahahaz, following them actually.
Unknowingly, I scrolled through Benjamin's Twitter.
No wonder he was quite hesitant when he mentioned "my girl" yesterday.
For most of the tweets, I can relate to him.
And somehow, I wish to reply to those tweets, or just retweet some of it.
Such a sweet guy like him, I really wonder why did his girlfriend chose to left him.
Then again, I don't have the rights to judge.
Because I don't know anything about them.
Maybe because he really likes JJ a lot?
So somehow, it sorts of gives me the feeling that we have something in common.
And now, after reading his tweets, I feel, I don't know somehow saddened.
No wonder he said he's a very emotional person.
During the interview, when they asked what kind of songs he like to sing.
Or was it the question why he like JJ.
One of the tweets I seriously felt like tweeting was.
"Yea, you tweet and text your friends more than you text or tweet me."
Which is another reason why I hate social media so much nowadays.
Even though I myself uses it.
But given a choice, I rather all these wasn't invented.
iPhones, other smartphones.
I'd rather be stuck with a dial-up broadband connection and an old Nokia phone that has the snake game in it.
Somehow, we're the same.
Being hooked and released, hooked and released.
Feeling like we're being taken granted of by the someone in our minds.
And at times, we can tell ourselves to let go, and that one day the other party will regret it.
And at times, we just feel so low, and so down, so devastated it's like we don't know how to tank this sadness, so we tweet something, hoping that the other person will see, but it's not like it's gonna help.
I hate seeing you being online or last seen on WhatsApp, and not replying me.
Knowing that you're playing Facebook games and not even bothering to talk to me.
Well, that's sucks.
It's a give and take in relationship.
Seriously.
It's like.
For me, I am willing to trust my boyfriend.
But he shouldn't take it as an advantage for him to flirt around with other girls, calling them overly friendly terms, maybe to him it's not, but to me, it is, and if he loves me, maybe he should spare a thought for me and take note of how he interact with friends of the opposite gender.
Trust isn't something that can be gained overnight, as I always said.
They are built up slowly, by fulfilling all the promises that are made.
Darling, you once said promises are meant to be broken.
Lolz, is that what they are to you?
Like rules?
Meant to be broken?
It's not like I don't allow my boyfriend to go out with his friends.
I don't always stop him from studying with his friends, hanging out with his colleagues.
Or drinking or watching soccer with his friends who are heavily in debt.
Or going clubbing.
When I wanna tag along, it's not because I wanna spot-check in him anyway.
I myself wanna explore this world.
I have plenty of time in the future, but I was thinking, if I can do it with his as a companion, why not?
Obviously, he thinks otherwise.
That I am sticking to him too much.
To the extent that he doesn't have time for his friends.
Oh, if that's the case, don't ever suggest your girlfriend to move in with you next time.
Seriously.
And plus, if your girlfriend lets you go out with your friends, don't just go out with them and forget about her.
At least text her once in a while when you're out there.
Think of her, miss her and show your concern to her even when you're not around.
When you promise her you'd be home by a certain time, or meet her the next day, you better do it.
Don't break these little promises then act nonchalant about it.
Because it breaks her heart more than you can ever think.
If not, don't push all the blame to her when she starts being unhappy about you going out with your friends.
There's an effect to every cause.
If one person is reacting this way, it's because something caused him or her to be that way.
You are like this probably because I stick TOO much to you.
Check on you TOO much.
And question you a lot.
Wondered why?
Insecurities.
What caused that?
Me being paranoid.
Every done anything to assured that?
Yea, how long ago?
Eons.
Saw this on Facebook not long ago.
As in, re-saw it.
Because I shared it already long ago.
And happen to read it again when I scroll my Facebook.
It's about what girls do not know about guys,
Saw this on Facebook not long ago.
As in, re-saw it.
Because I shared it already long ago.
And happen to read it again when I scroll my Facebook.
It's about what girls do not know about guys,
女生不懂，當看到男生一直快樂時，不是男生沒有痛苦，而是全部埋在心底。。。
女生不懂，當女生為男生付出的時候，男生不是看不見，而是不善於表達。。。
女生不懂，當男生挑剔女生不好的時候，在別人面前卻誇的如天仙一般。。。
女生不懂…當男生轉身的時候，女生看不到男生眼底的悲傷和心理的淚和血。。。
女生不懂，當男生失意的時候，永遠是孤獨的喝著酒。。。
女生不懂，當男生在堅強的外表下，有時候是一顆異常脆弱的心。。。
女生不懂，當男生悲傷的時候，永遠不會罵女生，是因為男生還深深的愛著她。。。
女生不懂，當女生痛苦的時候，男生的心痛永遠不會比女生少。。。
女生不懂，當男生離開的時候，並不代表他不愛她，而是不想浪費她的青春和感情。。。
女生不懂，當男生選擇成為過客的時候，男生的心中永遠刻著女生的名字。。。
女生不懂，當男生裝傻的時候，不是忘記，而是在想如何給女生一個驚喜。。。
女生不懂，當男生生氣的時候，不是因為不能承受女生的無理取鬧，而是因為被女生的話深深地傷害。。。
如果一個男生真的愛一個女生，他的許多都是女生不懂得，男生對女生的尊重和愛也不會比女生付出的少，因為男生承受的東西本就很多，男生的心不會比女生堅強，因為女生可以發洩，而男生卻只能壓在心底。。。
那傷很痛…很痛…很痛…
I don't know how true it is.
But I doubt my boyfriend feels this way anymore.
You haven't been calling me "dear" or "laopo" these few days.
Every morning, you just text me with a "Morning!".
Every night, you just text me with a "Night!".
Why then, why?
Suddenly volunteer to call me last night, calling me "dear"?
And texting me, using the word "dear" as well.
It's like pushing me away then pulling me closer.
Stop doing that, seriously, stop.
I am not complaining that you're calling me "dear".
But if you wanna do it, do it often, because I like you calling me that way.
If you can't, don't.
Don't just be nice to me whenever you go drinking.
Don't lemme hear that gentle voice you got after you drink.
It stabs me.
STABS ME.
And give me false hope that you still want me in your life.
When you don't even fight for me.
Perhaps you think, if I really love you, then why do you still have to fight for me.
I've already told you many times, so I won't explain it any more.
It's not like writing all these is gonna help.
You're prolly gonna feel ~_~ after reading all these.
Like, sianz, she ranting and stressing me again.
So, continue saying good morning to her every morning.
And every night.
Texting your friends more than you text me.
Because yea, I know I am that special.
If you wanna let go so much, just do it.
Don't be selfish and lemme decided everything.
BOTH OF US are in this relationship.
I am not in a relationship with myself.
So obviously, I can't decide what I wanna do.
Be a man.
Don't keep avoiding problems.
It's not the Alee I know.
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