They Kissed Again.

If only everyone has a personal camcorder to record all they have done in life.
Then they can look back, and watched what they have done, said.
Like how we always watch dramas and movies.

When we are not involve, we always tend to see things more clearly.
Because we can take on the issue with a more neutral point of view.
No emotions attached.

Before I slept this morning, I watched 《恶作剧2吻》。
I feel him and I, in the show.
Similarities.

The girl in the show and I are both blur, like really.
Except she's more blur and she's cuter.
And the guys we love are really smart.

Why do I say they're similar?

They don't express themselves easily.
Don't talk much.
They're protective of their girls.
And dotes on their girls a lot.
But unknowingly get close to other girls.

And the girl and I, well, we're both paranoid.
We can get upset because of the things they said, or do.
Perhaps their negligence.
But a small gesture can make us happy already.

I wished I had watched this show with him instead of Temptation of Wife.
Which we didn't even finished.
This show is a happier show.

In the show, I can spot many of the problems that is present in their relationship.
And in ours.

The guy doesn't like to be rushed.
The girl is really afraid of losing him.
The guy gets angry when he's rushed.
And what he needs is the girl to trust him.
But the girl gets paranoid really easily because the guy seldom show his affection.
But he's just that kind of guy.
And many of the times, the small gestures that the guy do for the girl, she didn't really notice, and she misunderstands him as well.

But one thing is that the guy wouldn't do anything to betray her.

*

Saw your tweets.
I thought you didn't believe in Horoscopes but you retweeted.

I don't know if you're carrying any grief about us on your shoulder.
And I know, you're not those who wanna hurt people's feelings easily.

Like I wrote to you, I know you're those who are cheerful and bubbly and carefree on the surface, you have intricate emotions.
It took me a while to understand that.
But I did anyway.

But I hope these few days, without me strapping you down, you're enjoying yourself with your friends.
You left the decision to me, to decide if we're still a couple.
I haven't said we're not.
So we still are.
But I don't know what kind of couple we are.
You didn't reply my message.

Or reply to my tweet.
But it's okaez, I expected it.

How I wish my life was a drama or movie so that I can be happy.

*

My throat is getting worse.
Lolz, how am I supposed to BBQ later ;\ ?

And that's when I remember how you bought herbal tea for me and asked me to finished drinking it because you know I am coughing.

Memories are deadly.

*

I had a dream about him this morning too.
And we were talking.
And then suddenly I was crying.
And talking about how I was sad.
About things he said.
And I said, "Nvm, you wouldn't understand even after I said all these.."
And then he leaned over and hugged me.
Like how the guy hugged the girl in the show.

That stabbed me.
My heart was bleeding this morning when I woke up.