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Dearest blog.

Whenever I feel upset about someone's words or actions, I have this tendency to remind myself that I have no control over who say what or who do what.
However, I do have a control the way I think, the way I act and of course, the things I say.

For my officially second ex.
I cannot control the way he thinks about me, the things he say about me.
And the way he wanna end this relationship.

After all, it just proves that he was never meant to be mine.
2008, I should have got that hint.
However, the one year I have spent with him is not wasted at all.
Because after all, I have gained insights to many things.

Everyone has 24 hours per day.
No more, no less.
I believe everyone has heard this quote at least once in their life.
Well, if you haven't then you sure do now.

There're some people who can make full use of these 24 hours.
And there're just some people who choose to waste it away.
I used to be someone who waste my time away.
And perhaps, I still do now.
But recently, I am inspired and perhaps, motivated to change that.

I want to make full use of my time.
And make my life more meaningful.

1 October, is another turning point in my life.
Because I met people who inspired me, and just a few hours ago.
I guess, I made one of the most uncertain decisions in my life.

I used to think that the leader of Legends, the JRs of Legends are daosters.
I used to think that the makers of DeathTob are irritants.
But I guess, all those views change.
And I really wanna whack myself for passing judgements.
Again, this is a time where I wanna remind myself that I should never ever judge.
Yupz, not to judge is one of the things I am working on.

Yesterday was a happy day (after the funeral).
I met up with a joker who accompanied me to replace my bank card.
And we chatted for hours before heading for the training.

He is my Gin Shifu.
He shared a lot about his life.
And how he came to be who he is now.
At least, a part of it.
And although he labels himself as the failure in the family, I think he's cool.
Really.

Like Remy Shifu, both of them are inspiring.
Remy Shifu, is someone who really really inspires me alot.
At the age of 17, he's skilled in coding.

Just during supper a few hours ago, I heard he's taking private diploma.
And I was curious because I thought it wasn't possible.
I forgot whether it was Gin Shifu or Zeta Shifu who told me, Remy Shifu's skill is recognize.

Both Gin Shifu and Remy Shifu learnt coding because it is their interest.
And today, they manipulate the sales of the best hack in AuditionSEA.

Of course, that's not the reason why I became their friends.
Although I didn't spend a lot of time with them, I can feel that they are not bad people.
I hope they won't treat me as someone who gets close to them purposely for a reason.

I was telling Sweetheart earlier on that I still feel pain.
But the more I feel the pain, the more determined I am to work harder.

I don't know if I am numb.
Or trying my best to suppress.
I don't know if I really can see the bright side to my life.
Or am I just pretending to be.

But no matter what, I know I am trying my best.
And I know I really really wanna be successful in my life :) .
Because if people can do it, so can I :D .

HuiYee, same old words, hwaiting :D .

PS: This might perhaps be my last post, I am switching to a new address.
After all, new life, new start ^_^ .
AnnWai, will always be special to me.
A special chapter part of my life, but yupz, it's time to let go.
I'll get her max ring for her, as I promised myself.

I hate breaking promises.