"Write to taste life twice."
That is why, I like to keep a blog.
Not just to record down memories that I would wanna look back and reminisce but to reflect upon my own actions, attitudes, and change for the better.
When I blog, I will think about many things.
Things that happened just before, that cause me to wanna blog.
Things that happened in the day.
And things that happened way way before, perhaps in my whole entire life as far as my memory can serve me.
Which is why, blogging, or writing down a diary, can take me more than hours.
And honestly, I hate it when I have to neglect it so that I can save time for studying.
Darling often ask me why I keep stalking people.
By reading their Facebooks posts, visiting their walls, reading their blogs.
I shall explain why.
Hmmz, people write blogs, post things for a reason, if they want no one to know, they can set it private, write it in a personal diary, or just keep mum about it.
But actually, some of the times, when we write blog, we want people to understand how we feel.
We want to see who actually share the same thoughts as us.
When we get respond, at least we feel less alone, knowing that someone is standing by us.
Of course, we also can take this chance to see who care about us enough to read our blogs, our Facebook posts, our Twitter, to update themselves on what's happening in our lives.
I read JT's blog even though I no longer talk much to him.
But that's because even though I don't talk to him anymore, I hope to know that he's fine.
I hope that one day, he would feel less depressed and negative about life than he is now.
I read Senior's blog because I think his blog is personal enough, and some of the things that he talk about?
Well, I can closely relate to.
I feel that he is sensitive to people's feelings, unlike most of the people nowadays, being self-centered at all.
This Senior is someone I can trust to talk to.
I read Sweetheart's blog because her words are beautiful.
The way she express herself make me feel as though I am personally there experiencing whatever she went through, her bad pasts, her sweet moments with Boon.
I am really happy for her, that Boon actually reads her blog to keep himself updated about her life.
Sweetheart's blog, is filled with happiness.
And she makes me feel that there is hope in this world for a true and sincere relationship.
Not superficial and hypocritical ones.
I read babe's blog because I that's the only way I can know more about her.
That silly girl likes to let people think that she is strong, but deep down, she is just as vulnerable as I am.
As much as I want to protect her, I can't because I can't even protect myself.
I don't know how I should console her, because the things she went through, I can't compare.
It's just much worse than me.
I like to see her smile, to see her happy, but I know she is not what she is showing to the world.
I want to understand her, which is why I read her blog and stalk her Facebook almost all the time.
I used to put tagbox in my blog.
Have anyone asked me why I don't?
When I have a tagbox, and I see people leaving nice messages, of course I'll be happy.
But what if, people don't?
I'll feel, neglected, abandoned.
Well, at least I don't have a tagbox, I can tell myself that people don't leave messages on my blog because I don't have a tagbox.
After ranting so much.
Now here comes the question.
I wonder who actually reads my blog, word by word, to keep themselves updated about me.
/AnnWai.