11.29AM:
These few days, waking up has been a chore.
Not because I wanna lie on bed, but because there's no motivation.

I don't know if I am giving you too much pressure or what.
I know you like freedom, and have your own interest to pursue.
I am not stopping you from them.

But if you chose to step into a relationship, you should be prepared to sacrifice some 'freedom'.
You can spend time to pursue your own interest.
But you definitely need to spend time with your girlfriend, and that's me.

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9.38PM - around 10 minutes after we ended call, you told me you're going to sleep.
9.55PM - you're still playing football game.
11.45PM - you're reading some new on Yahoo News.
Around 12AM plus, you called me.
12.13AM - we ended call and you told me good night once again.

This morning, 7.30AM I called you and you said you woke up late.
Sigh.

I don't wanna jump to any conclusion.
So, I am waiting for you to explain.

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11.39AM.
I asked you what time did you sleep yesterday and you said you don't know.
And then you asked me why.

I list out the timings above, what you were doing.
By doing that,  I know I am giving you pressure again.
But I really wish to know what were the reason why you can't sleep.
Usually, you'd be sleeping when I am at your house.

And the thing is, you did not even text or call me when you can't sleep.
If you didn't sleep at all, between the time of our first call and second call, what were you doing?

Frankly, I am upset.

How many times do I have to say this?
I wish our relationship can go on.
But it isn't gonna work out if you're telling me anything.

我要的不是表面上的开心。
我要的是心灵上的连系。