Am I a past, a stain in your life you wanna remove?

I haven't been visiting your Facebook page for quite some time.
And today, I just feel the urge to.
I betrayed myself again.
And saw what you liked on Facebook.

"喜欢但说不出的感觉 你是否和我一样呢? 顺其自然吧~ 得hold住!!!"

Do you have someone else you like now?
Hahahaz.

"我不是不想爱，而是忘了怎么去爱"

I can't help feeling guilty because I made you feel that way.
But if I could, I would let you know.
Everyone's way of loving themselves and anyone is different.
There isn't a formula.
Or a method.

Just whether you love yourself, or you love the other person more.
In this life, if you can find someone who you can love more than yourself, you are a lucky person.
And if the person loves you back, you are a damn lucky person.

I don't think you forgot how to love.
I believe you're just tired.
And I also believe, one day, you'll learn to let yourself go and love again.
Even though you told me before you're scared to love too.

"我很讨厌.....等。 因为会让我等的人让我觉得......不重要....."

I hate waiting too...
And all these while, I haven been waiting for you.
Are you waiting for me to take the initiatives?
I took, to ask you out for a drink.
But you chose Casino over me.
And even thought of letting me wait alone at Clarke Quay.
You didn't apologize.
Nor did you call or text to ask me out again.
That made me feel unimportant to.
将心比心。
If you hate to be waiting, I hate it too.
But after all these while...
Do you still feel unimportant to me?

"I'll never stop caring but if you decide to push me away, I'll go."

I never pushed you away.
I kept coming closer to you.
Trying to keep us close.
I kept trying to sew us together.
But you keep unthreading.
With your impatience, and unwillingness to let me into your world.
I'll never stop caring for you.
But you're pushing me away.
So I can only watch you from afar.
Because I know, the way I think I am caring for you, will only stress you out.
I am waiting for you let me know what you want.
So I am just waiting and waiting.

I am feeling miserable.

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I miss the time we shared your earpiece.
Listening to the songs on your phone.
With me lying on your shoulder.

But they're all in the past already, aren't they.

Jason Lee, you really are a complicated man.
What can I do to make both of us happy again?
Or, are you happy now.
Without me?