Pretty or ugly, that important?

Merry evening readers!
No wait.
Happy midnight !
LOLZ.

For the 18 years that I have set foot upon Earth.
Yes, you heard me right, my tone is like a boss.

Well yea, 18 years has passed since I set foot upon Earth and I believe.
This is the first time my body clock has ever been so screwed.
Fancy, sleeping at 1PM plus plus and waking up at near 10PM.
;0 .

This is incredibly.
Hmmz, I don't know, LOLZ.
But I find it interesting.
And I think adjusting my body clock back is a challenge ^_^ .

Came across this on Facebook, yesterday.

My reply is:

I wouldn't blame guys for choosing the pretty girls over the ugly girls.

After all, most guys are just too much of a visual creature to see through beyond the surface.

If given a handsome and ugly guy, who both are good-hearted, I will of course, pick the handsome guy.

Being an ordinary human, of course I will pick the best for myself.

However, if you tell me the handsome fella is a flirt and the ugly chap is a faithful man, I believe, I will go for the ugly bloke.

To you, perhaps the "I don't mind if he's kind" is crap.

But it's really the way I feel.

I would be lying totally if I said looks don't matter to me at all.

However, I will talk to a person, even if he or she doesn't meet the criteria of looking the least pleasant.

Perhaps that person will not attract me enough, but it doesn't mean I will not talk to that person to find out if he or she is good-hearted.

;) , you need to mix around more with the right kind of company, dude.

This world is so realistic.
Sometimes, I am so ashamed to be living in this society.
-_- .

Sometimes, I really wonder.
Is it because I am not pretty, that's why my boyfriends dumped me.
;roar.

But in the end, I always have the same conclusion.
If that is one of the reasons, or the reason, whatsoever, they can go f*** themselves.
LOLZ because the outer beauty of all ladies will die off sooner or later.
And what's left is prolly personality, and the way she carries herself.

Even the muscles of the most macho man will sag when he gets old.
Not to mention us ladies.

;sigh, but what's with this girls vs boys war about who choose over the better looking ones and complain about the entire population?

-_- , shallow people.

"The power of love is not in passion but in patience. If you truly love, you are truly patient."

"The power of love is not in passion but in patience. If you truly love, you are truly patient."

You loved, I didn't.
We loved but drifted.
I love, you _______ .

What is patience suppose to include?

Am I a past, a stain in your life you wanna remove?

I haven't been visiting your Facebook page for quite some time.
And today, I just feel the urge to.
I betrayed myself again.
And saw what you liked on Facebook.

"喜欢但说不出的感觉 你是否和我一样呢? 顺其自然吧~ 得hold住!!!"

Do you have someone else you like now?
Hahahaz.

"我不是不想爱，而是忘了怎么去爱"

I can't help feeling guilty because I made you feel that way.
But if I could, I would let you know.
Everyone's way of loving themselves and anyone is different.
There isn't a formula.
Or a method.

Just whether you love yourself, or you love the other person more.
In this life, if you can find someone who you can love more than yourself, you are a lucky person.
And if the person loves you back, you are a damn lucky person.

I don't think you forgot how to love.
I believe you're just tired.
And I also believe, one day, you'll learn to let yourself go and love again.
Even though you told me before you're scared to love too.

"我很讨厌.....等。 因为会让我等的人让我觉得......不重要....."

I hate waiting too...
And all these while, I haven been waiting for you.
Are you waiting for me to take the initiatives?
I took, to ask you out for a drink.
But you chose Casino over me.
And even thought of letting me wait alone at Clarke Quay.
You didn't apologize.
Nor did you call or text to ask me out again.
That made me feel unimportant to.
将心比心。
If you hate to be waiting, I hate it too.
But after all these while...
Do you still feel unimportant to me?

"I'll never stop caring but if you decide to push me away, I'll go."

I never pushed you away.
I kept coming closer to you.
Trying to keep us close.
I kept trying to sew us together.
But you keep unthreading.
With your impatience, and unwillingness to let me into your world.
I'll never stop caring for you.
But you're pushing me away.
So I can only watch you from afar.
Because I know, the way I think I am caring for you, will only stress you out.
I am waiting for you let me know what you want.
So I am just waiting and waiting.

I am feeling miserable.

*

I miss the time we shared your earpiece.
Listening to the songs on your phone.
With me lying on your shoulder.

But they're all in the past already, aren't they.

Jason Lee, you really are a complicated man.
What can I do to make both of us happy again?
Or, are you happy now.
Without me?

Waking Up Sickness.

This feeling is sick man.
Absolutely sick.

I hate waking up.
Like, yea, I swear.
It's not like I don't wanna live anymore but yea, I just don't feel like waking up.

Everytime I open my eyes and snap back into reality from my dreams, I feel as though I travelled between dimensions.
And the feeling is horrible.
So, how exactly do I feel?

• Heartbeat racing.
• Hands and legs turning cold.
• Stomach churning.
• Feeling like puking.
• Heart sinking.

Generally, that way.
Not to mention every morning, waking up with bleeding gums.

Yea, actually, I am supposed to be up at 9AM, but I slept back.
RuiWen called me at a little later than 9.30AM, like 9.34AM?
And I woke up and oovoo them.
Val suggested we used Skype instead so here I am, waiting for them to video call me.
Val said RuiWen added me, but I don't see the request popping out ); .
Or did I accidentally rejected it out of sleepiness?
Hahahaz T^T , my god wake uppppp !

Just saw a quite meaningful post on Facebook when I woke up.

A tinge of sadness lingers on.

But it's fine, as long as you're happy ;) .

In search of a remedy

Arghz, Instagram is having trouble uploading my photo again ); , angry.

But it's okaez, I can always use another way to have it uploaded.
Lolz.

Jason Lee, this picture familiar bahz ;) .

"I want to help. Yet I can't find a way in which I can. I feel helpless. But I won't stop searching for a remedy. Because I care. And because I do, I will not give up. Never on you."

A quote that will always touch me.
Always.

I never read much into this quote until I have to admit, today.
How much courage and determination one must have in order to write down and fulfill this.
To want to help the person he or she loves.
How much effort he must put in, when he said he'll never give up.

I can now, totally relate to this sentence.

I want to help when you feel angry or upset.
Yet I can't find a way in which I can.
And so, I feel helpless like I always do.
I tried searching for a remedy, and I didn't stop, I am still trying to.
Because I really do care.

"I will not give up. Never on you."

Reason Why A Girl Cry

如 果 一 个 女 孩 会 因 为 你 一 点 小 事 就 哭 、
这 不 一 定 代 表 她 爱 哭 、而 是 她 太 过 在 乎 你。 

放不下，忘不掉。

9.02AM:
Nowadays, I can't seem to find the right title to fit my blog posts LOLZ.
Unless I start on my Three Words Chat again.

Have been busy in and out these days, rushing for assignment, meeting for projects, etc.

And I finally finally have time to meet my babe and go out with her ;D , so happy~!

Just two days ago, I finished a presentation on 徐志摩's ≪再别康桥≫。
My group got a good grade ;) and I am really happy about it.
Umma had put it alot of work on the video, and ShuXian and her had put in alot of work on the presentation.
I can't say I did alot, so, I am in no position to brag about it, or say that I have did my best to get this grade because frankly, I didn't do that much compared to the two of them.

To the readers who have been visiting my blog, sorry for not posting for hmmz, these few days >< !!
I have been emptying my emotions into my personal diary more than I do on this space so yupz, that cause me to slack off from this place ); .

Am on my way to school to meet Unnie and YuShi to practice using the camera.
Head's less giddy then when I woke up earlier on.

Saw a quote on Facebook.
Hahahaz.

If everyone was so selfless, this world would be so much a better place ;) .

And this is for my dearest Unnie.

2.32PM.
Am on bus to Clementi Station, gonna train to City Hall.
Am worried about a few stuff.
Even though worrying isn't the best solution and well, it's not as though worrying is gonna help much in solvinf matters.
But I just can't help being worry.

Before we parted ways, Unnie mentioned something about me that I probably knows but brushed it aside.
That, I'm just different.

The me recently can be described as 忧郁，心不在焉。

I tend to zone out easily.
Get affected easily.
I don't know if it's because I take too much notice of people's actions and words at certain point of time such that things happen like this but generally, that's why I am like these few days.

I can still remember myself crying my lungs out while typing a birthday message to Sweetheart, a few minutes before 7 July ended.
I was pretty amazed with myself for being able to do that in that situation I was in.

All that I am thinking now is.
有时候，人会翻旧账不是因为小气而放不下，是因为还在为那件事心痛，所以忘不掉。

Am I too affected by you?
If I do, you're probably someone really important to me.

So please, stay with me.
Don't leave me alone.

3.09PM.
They say, people who knows you well and care for you will be able to see the tears behind those smiles of yours.
Will be able to tell that you're upset from the way you type your SMS.

I don't know if these people exist in my life.
Because right now, when I feel like crying, I can't even find a shoulder for me to lean on.
I can't even say out honestly, how I feel about everything.