三纲者，君臣义。父子亲，夫妇顺。

启示:
要使人与人之间有一个良好和谐的关系，每个人都要认清自己的地位，人人从我做起，才能天下安宁，人类永远和平。
In order to ensure peace and harmony between humans, everyone has to be clear or where they stand, everything has to begin with ourselves, and that's only when the world will be at peace, and humans will always be in harmony.

译文:
什么是“三纲”呢？三纲是人与人之间关系应该遵守的三个行为准则，就是君王与臣子的言行要合乎义理，父母子女之间相亲相爱，夫妻之间和顺相处。
The are three rules in which humans must abide.
1. There must be reasonable negotiation between the ruler and his followers.
2. Parents and their children must care for each other.
3. Husband and wife must be able to live together smoothly.


Yes, it's me. Hahahaz, I am back after so many days of missing from blogging. Genrally, I had nothing much to blog about.
Probably just wanna quote Eminem.
"When it's going good it's going great, I'm superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois Jane, but when it's awful, I feel so ashamed, I snapped, "Who's that dude, I don't even know his name."

Well, I guess, the lyrics above explains how I feel in my current relationship.
When we're not arguing, everything seem so well.
But when we are not on good terms, and I snapped, I don't even know who I am anymore.
I hate it when the angry monster inside me controls me.
As if there is no remedy, all I needed was a hug - a pair of strong arms to hold me tight (that's why I have a fetish of appreciating guys with lovely strong arms).

Actually, I have no idea why I wanna blog at this moment.
Perhaps with the sole concern to update this near dying blog.
And perhaps, I just saw something that gives me a reason to update.

While checking my Facebook messages today, I clicked on the Others section.
I usually don't check under that section because I feel that the messages inside are probably rubbish, and that's true for most of the time when I check the contents of that section.
But today, I saw something near shocking.

I didn't expect this after 3 years of not talking.
I didn't expect that you, Jared Christian Chau Chun Liong, will message me.
Two years of having a crush on you online.
2 months of 'being together', only to find out that 'you accept because you didn't know how reject' to 'k, we will be friends' to 'The user's profile is only available to friends'.

Dodo, I am not blaming you now.
I don't know if 3 years meant anything to you but it definitely meant something to me.
I don't wanna rant here.
Just wanna let you know, I have alot to tell you.
And the day you get my reply, will be the day you get a bit more understanding of what I went through.

Though it's late, Jared, I forgive you.
Because you apologised.
You'll always be a part of me ;) .

三才者，天地人。三光者，日月星

启示:
人类只有认识世界，才能改造世界。世界太大了。天空中的星辰以及雷、电、风、雨，大地的山川河流、花草树木、鱼虫百兽,而人又是万物之灵。只有不断学习，才能运用掌握的知识去改造世界。
译文:
还应该知道一些日常生活常识，如什么叫“三才”？三才指的是天、地、人三个方面。什么叫“三光”呢？三光就是太阳、月亮、星星。
Humans can only change this world, when they know this world.
The world is too big.
The stars in the sky, the lightning, the wind, the rain, the earth and the mountains and valleys, trees and plants, marine lives and roaming beasts.
Only when one doesn't stop learning, will he or she hold enough knowledge to change the world.

One should also have knowledge of basic living.

Next time when watching movie, sitting near the screen may not be such a bad idea.
Lolz.
These two guys.
Really made my day.
Midnight show ;) .

一而十，十而百。百而千，千而万。

启示：一到十看来很简单，但变化起来却无穷尽，算术这门学问越来越深奥了。几乎各个科学门类都离不开数学，所以必须认真地从简单的数目学起，为将来学习其他知识打好基础。
译文：我国采用十进位算术方法：一到十是基本的数字，然后十个十是一百，十个一百是一千，十个一千是一万......一直变化下去。
The numbers 1 to 10 might seem easy on the surface, but the changes within them are unpredictable.
Almost everything has something to do with Maths so one have to start from scratch by learning the basic and that will lead to a stable foundation to other subjects.


I have totally forgotten that I wanted to post something so I shall make it up by posting it in this entry.
I realized that a lot of people, myself included, blames everything and anything, everyone and anyone, besides ourselves when things happen.

Note to self: When things happen, the first thing is to correct the situation, not find faults with anything or anyone.


Next thing I realize yesterday was that it's in the human nature to assume the worst of everything.
Here's a story to share.
A woman was shopping in the jewelry shop, and like the jewelry shops, the jewels are in display in the glass.
She placed her bag on the glass display as she took a look at the other jewels since there was no one around.
A young man walked into the shop, and were looking at the same display set that the woman was looking at.
Upon seeing that, the woman took her bag away from the glass display.

And now, the question is, why do you think the woman take the bag away?

The young man, upon seeing that the woman removed her bag away from the glass display, frowned and said to her, "I wouldn't wanna take a bag like yours."
Now, the woman is hurt.

Because the truth is, she did not want her bag to obstruct the view of the young man who wanted to look at the jewelry as well.

Note to self: Always give someone the benefit of the doubts, not to assume the worst, but learn to see things from a different view.


I realize I have been an extremely bitchy girl nowadays.
Totally non-cancer-like.
Throwing my temper around, losing patience at people, saying things purposely when I know it would hurt others.
And recently?
Being cocky just because of a minor success, due to luck.
I cannot express how upset and ashamed I am, with and of myself.
I want to change all these.

I am not this bitch I am now.

And, Antonio.

I wish I knew how to be a normal friend to you, to be able to talk to you normally without ending up in an argument and hurting your dignity, lolz.

I wish I knew.

首孝弟，次见闻。知某数，识某文。

启示：“孝敬父母，友爱兄弟是做人的基础；能文会算是做人的本钱。要做一个德才兼备的人，就必须这从两点做起。”
译文："一个人首先要学的是孝敬父母和兄弟友爱的道理，接下来是学习看到和听到的知识。并且要知道基本的算术和高深的数学，以及认识文字，阅读文学。"
One should put respecting parents and loving siblings as the basic for love.
Then followed by learning new things and hearing news.
Education should also be prioritised.


It's awkward, how I keep hopping all my friend's blog. (Except Sweetheart's.) To check for updates. Only to find none );< !

融四岁，能让梨。弟于长，宜先知。

“汉代人孔融四岁时，就知道把大的梨让给哥哥吃，这种尊敬和友爱兄长的道理，是每个人从小就应该知道的。”
启示: 从尊敬友爱兄长开始，培养自己的爱心。要以友善的态度对待他人，就不应该计较个人得失，才会受到别人的尊敬和欢迎，也才会感受到他的温暖。
Basically, the first six words brilliantly summarize the story of how a little boy gave up the biggest pear to his elder brother at the age of 4, it shows respect.
In short, this whole line means that we should learn how to steer our attitude in the right way, starting with knowing how to love and respect our friends and siblings, and stop ourselves from being calculative.
Only through this way would we be able to feel that people welcome us, the respect from them, and also, the warmth they wanna emit to us.


Stupendous, ain't it?
How all the logics and ideas can be written into three words.
I really have no idea how to express my love for language, but I just do.
I love language more than love itself.
(If the sentence above even make any sense.)

Anyway, in edit to the previous post where I mentioned that I was being late and made like I was a sinner, that's untrue.
I have understanding group members.
Thank you, Jasmine Unnie, Val Umma, YuShi and YiZhen ;) .
Whether or not you're gonna read this, thank you.

Let us JY for our next assignment ;D !
I hope this event we're supposed to organize will be a successful one ;) .
Hwaiting me!

✌✌✌ Hwaiting to all who are workin and studying!

//Add-ons: I have posted up the photos and my Genting entries ;) , they're scheduled to be posted on specific timing.
I know I have spammed alot of post today.
Just in case you readers missed out any.
Kekeke, ya, I am have thick skin, assuming that everyone reads every post LOLZ.
Ohwell ;D .

香九龄，能温席。孝于亲，所当执。

”黄香（黄）九岁的时候（九龄）就能（能）用身体给父亲暖炕席（温席）。 对父母亲尽孝顺（孝于亲），就应该做到这些（所当执）。 这里举了个黄香温席的故事，讲到要孝顺父母，关心父母，为父母着想。”
There was this boy who used his body warm, to warm up his father's bed for him, and that was when the boy was at the age of 9.
The story reminds us that we should always put filial piety first, to care for our parents, to think for our parents.


My group finally submitted the group project.
It's 10.13AM now and just minutes ago, while we were having break for our class, Jasmine Unnie came to Val Mama and I and told us that other groups had 70 pages long for their report.
While we only have 40 plus ); .

These few days, I have been rushing assignments so much to the point where I feel as though it's been decades since I last touched Audii.
Uncle Tan have been very hardworking on checking the garden.
I have no idea how he did it but the plants are blooming at different timings -_- .
Or maybe it's Ant.
But anyway, I am thankful that they are taking care of those flowers.

I really love the Three Word Chant.
More often known as 《三字经》。
Every sentence, means alot.
Specially, every three words.
I really wanna finish learning it.
Not trying to be a saint here but I think this is worth my time.
As a Chinese, I am proud of my mother tongue ;) .

Nowadays, a lot of Chinese are neglecting Chinese language for English because they think English is cooler.
But the joke there is, they turn out to be good in neither.
Again, I am not bragging about my language ability here, since there's none to be spoken of.
But I just wanna at least, record down in my memory that I am doing something to help myself improve my command of language.
I cannot emphasize enough how much I admire people with good language ability.
And how irritated I feel when people cannot even phrase what they wanna say properly.
And making stupid and ridiculous grammatical mistakes ALL THE TIME.
Not to mention the same one after people tell them it's wrong.
So yupz, my target in the 7 weeks holidays is to learn at least:

人之初，性本善。
性相近，习相远。
苟不教，性乃迁。
教之道，贵以专。

昔孟母，择邻处。
子不学，断机杼。
窦燕山，有义方。
教五子，名俱扬。❃ What I have in my memory.

养不教，父之过。
教不严，师之惰。
子不学，非所宜。
幼不学，老何为。

玉不琢，不成器。
人不学，不知义。
为人子，方少时。
亲师友，习礼仪。

香九龄，能温席。
孝于亲，所当执。 ✿ I'm here now, understanding the meaning.
融四岁，能让梨。
弟于长，宜先知。

首孝弟，次见闻。
知某数，识某文。
一而十，十而百。
百而千，千而万。

三才者，天地人。
三光者，日月星。
三纲者，君臣义。
父子亲，夫妇顺。

曰春夏，曰秋冬。
此四时，运不穷。
曰南北，曰西东。
此四方，应乎中。

曰水火，木金土。
此五行，本乎数。
曰仁义，礼智信。
此五常，不容紊。

稻粱菽，麦黍稷。
此六谷，人所食。
马牛羊，鸡犬豕。
此六畜，人所饲。

曰喜怒，曰哀惧。
爱恶欲，七情具。
□土革，木石金。
与丝竹，乃八音。

高曾祖，父而身。
身而子，子而孙。
自子孙，至元曾。
乃九族，而之伦。
父子恩，夫妇从。
兄则友，弟则恭。
长幼序，友与朋。
君则敬，臣则忠。

此十义，人所同。


Anyway, I have just updated my links under the tags page.
Kekeke, I feel proud of myself.
I think that my blog is generally more organized.

为人子，方少时。亲师友，习礼仪。

”做儿女的，从小时候就要亲近老师，结交益友，学习学习待人、处事、应对、进退的礼仪。“
As a young child, one should learn how to get close to teachers, treat friends right, to learn how to face different situations and master the art of advancing and retreating."


If only you hug me patiently and said you're sorry immediately.
Instead of waiting and then shooting me saying, "You cannot wait mehz?"

No, cannot, because most of time.
In fact 99% of the time, your "sorry" will never fucking come.

This ugly world.
Kill everyone.
Destroy everything.
Live on my own with my family the best.

2.35PM.
I don't know why I keep thinking about how you said your first ex taught you alot.
I feel so.
I wish I was the one who taught you.
I hate being so behind after all those ex of yours it just hurts me so much.

And seeing how you said you wanna open shop for your nanny because she's good in cooking.
I don't think I can ever be as good as her.

I am already losing motivation on cooking for you even before I started.
And even now as I feel trapped here, you're playing with your phone doing nothing to comfort me.

Boyfriend?
Lolz, joke.

玉不琢，不成器。人不学，不知义

”一个人的成才之路如同雕刻玉器一样，玉在没有打磨雕琢以前和石头没有区别，人也是一样，只有经过刻苦磨练才能成为一个有用的人。“
Humans are actually like jades.
When a jade is not polished, it is like a stone, valueless.
The same goes for humans.
Only when humans go through hardships, they become more useful, more valuable.


其实，现在的我，是害怕的。

如果，人与人之间能够添加多一点的谅解，也许世界就会少一些争吵。

我们不是故意迟到的。
但被弄得好像是千古罪人。

子不学，非所宜。幼不学，老何为。

"为人子女如果不用心学习，是不对的；年纪小的时候，不肯努力、用功学习，等到年纪大了，还能有什么作为呢？"
As a son or daughter, it isn't right, if one doesn't put in effort into education.
If you don't pu in effort into studies when you're young, what will you become in the future?

This is me before yesterday LOLZ.

And this is my current hair after a trip to Snip Avenue for $2.80 !

Although this picture is not really that glam, I still think I have to post this epic picture up LOLZ.

Yesyes, that's me trying to be Key in SHINEE doing the 'freeze' action.

I am so cute.

That's Burpson and me.

The goldfish puff LOLZ.

I'm sexy and I know it !

MEEEEEEEEE.

That's me with my glasses D< !

I really hope I do look younger by cutting bangs D; !

养不教，父之过。教不严，师之惰。

"生养孩子却不加教育，这是父亲的过错。教育学生不严格要求，这就是做老师的懒惰了。 
子不学 非所宜 幼不学 老何为 "
The fault lies on the father when he raises a child without education.
However, if education isn't strict, the fault lies on the teacher.

4.29PM.
On my way from school to Bishan Interchange.

One year isn't very long generally.
But in comparison to the relationships in the modern society nowadays, one year is quite long.

Teenagers, kids, even adults fall in and out of love so very very casually.
A 9 year old can tell you she have more than 10 ex LOLZ.
So yea, it's hard to really find a partner you can last long with.

I am not flaunting here.
About this one year checkpoint thing.
As long as you're with the right person, everyday feels like an anniversary.
Ain't it?
But yea, since this is the first time I've ever hit a one year for BGR, considering that it's my second relationship, I am proud of myself.

I held on this long despite the unjustice and unhappiness I felt.
;) , a strong girl, I am.

Happy 1st Year Anniversary to us, Jason Lee <3 .

PS: I may sound kind of bitchy and cocky here.
But please, don't think that way )< .

窦燕山，有义方。教五子，名俱扬。

”仅仅教育，而没有好的方法也是不行的。好的方法就是严格而有道理。窦燕山能够使五个儿子和睦相处，都很孝敬父母、并且学业上都很有成就，是和他的教育方法分不开的。“ Education without a good method is never a good idea.
A good method will be reasonable and serious discipline.
In the past, there was this man who made is possible for his five sons to live together in harmony.
All of them were filial to their parents.
They had good results too.
That was possible because of his good education to his son.

3.54PM, Val Mama and I at Macs, the drink is hers, the fries are mine ;D .

This is Jasmine, my Unnie <3 !
Yeppo right ;) ?

4.29PM, she finally joined us ;D .

4.31PM, Val Mama and I <3 !

5.29PM, Val Mama on our mat ;D .
Sandy ground you see, had to put mats.
Mats are provided !

5.31PM, the happy Unnie after she took many many pictures ;) .

5.34PM, Val Mama and I continue embarking on our journey of selca-iing.

5.37PM, cute right this baby?

5.38PPM, the other kids who were also at the event ;D !

5.41PM, BOOGIE WOOGIE YOOGIE ;D .

5.53PM, I cannot tell you in words, how cute this baby is she she attempted to take the balloon from the other two kids in the picture LOLZ.

5.55PM, the two fangirls (over kids) !

5.57PM, I had to take one last picture of him before leaving.
LOLZ he was so engrossed with playing !

6.04PM, that's us.
A cute photographer help us take de k ;D .

6.04PM, heng I wore slippers ;D .

6.07PM, edited at this timing, took beforehand de.

6.08PM, the super friendly and cute guy who surveyed us LOLZ ;D .

6.21PM, second round of performance !

6.48PM, our bands, we bought for charity.
At 3 for $10 !

6.50PM, friends forever ;) .

6.51PM, the dark sky ;0 !

6.52PM, Jasmine Unnie insisted that I must adjust the camera such that the ribbon on her head is visible in the picture D; ?

6.53PM, I guess, she really love this event alot ;) .
Prolly because of the kids LOLZ.

6.57PM, Val Mama and Jasmine Unnie ;D .

6.58PM, they insisted that I shall make my face the biggest in this picture ); , okaez.

7.10PM, I really love taking pictures with friends ;) .

7.10PM, WE LOVE SUJU ~

7.11PM, we are the Sapphire Blue Babes !

Taken with I-Forgot-Which App.

Taken with Girls' Camera App.

Taken with Smile Camera App.

Taken with Poco Camera App ;0 !

Forgot which T_T .

Taken with Multi-Lens Camera App !

昔孟母，择邻处。子不学，断机杼

9.20PM.

The explanation for this in Chinese and English are both long.
Basically it has something to do with the story of a mother shifting house for three times, just to make sure she has found the perfect environment for her child to grow up.

Today is a happy day.
;D , basically, I met alot of kids with Val and Jasmine ^___^ we took loads of pictures too.
Waiting for my phone to sync with the computer.
Then I will select some of the better looking pictures to upload.
Hahahaz.

We went to this event called Singapore Arts Festival ;) .
And the children put up a performance for us.
Although there were times when technical glitch occurred, children forgetting where they should stand on stage, children forgetting their lines, or child crying for her mum while performing, it was a wonderful performance because the kids are so adorable to the point where glitches like the above became negligible.

Dar and I went to choose our 2nd year anniversary.
Actually, I'm starting to feel a little lazy to carry on with this relationship le.
The more I think of it, the more I feel that, even though Dar has been very nice to me, I have started to change already.
Perhaps most part of me still love him.
But I am definitely starting to care less about this whole thing le.

I came home to the fact knowing that he watched porn again.
I feel a little upset.
But not to the point where, I need to cry and shout and land myself in a pathetic state.
I am starting to feel nothing.

To be honest.
Sometimes, when we exchange 'I love you," and I am asked to describe how I feel.
I can only say, I don't feel happy.
But heartache even though I may be smiling.
And everytime I know he watches, I will be reminded of times when I confronted him.
And the replies he gave me.
Like the ones present in the two screenshots below.

"Just tell me. Why is it that you always wanna check on me? Why is it that you wanna turn everything upside down? Sigh. You go home tonight ba."

"You make me don't feel like going home tonight. Sigh. I'm walking to workplace now le."

Truthfully speaking, I have never forgotten how hurt I felt.
And even now, when I am hurting, I am hurt mainly because of what I am reminded of, and not because of what he did behind my back ;) .

As I walk on the streets today, with Val and Jasmine.
I met many guys.
I came to interact with two.
One was the one who helped us took photo.
And the other one is the one who needed our help in surveys.
Both of them are damn cute.
I seriously would get the number of the guy who was asking help for survey.
Because he's really friendly.
And he didn't just walked off after the survey.
He stayed back to chat with both of us.
Hahaz, I swear I would get his number if I wasn't attached.

Me: JASMINNNNEEEE WAE AM I SINGLE )< !
Jasmine: Break up lahz, why no wanna break up ?!
Me: Because I am in a relationship mahz, cannot just hop because got some better looking guys ;x , not something I will do.

I am not trying to imply that I am charming or whatever.
I just wanna remind myself that in this world, there are many guys out there.
So really, I don't have to sacrifice my youth on this one.

I don't know why I choose to continue with this relationship.
Although Alee has promised to not let me regret it.
And he'd do anything to make me happy and that he won't do anything to make me sad, he went against his words again and again.
And honestly, I don't have much hope in his words anymore.

I know why my mother says to always give myself chance to widen my social cycle.
Because although I keep saying this world lacks humanity, this society is corrupted, there're bound to be people who share the same thought as me.
And I wanna give myself chance to know this people.

Alee, you need to know.
From the moment I had that mindset.
I am already prepared to see you with another girl, pretending to not know who you are, and drop whatever I have with you and move on.

Because damn.
You are the not the man that can bring security in my life.
For love, I am willing to stake almost my everything.
But for you, I have more than second thoughts.