Kokoro No Yakusoku.

I can't really remember what this phrase means.
But this phrase never left my mind for a single day.
My mind is weird, honestly, because it goes through a same routine every single day.
There will be this set of information that goes for processing in my brain every single day.
The same people, the same event, the same words.
So if I really remember something, I remember them for a long time.

Since the clock has not strike 12, what happened earlier on is still considered what happened today.
And I guess, I sort of break down in class.
I cried for the same thing that I knew wasn't the first, wouldn't be the last.
My stomach felt upset, really.
I regret eating so much.

After school, I called my dasao.
She's awesome, really, and deep down from the bottom of my heart, I am really glad for her that God put Boon with her.
After all that she have went through, she deserve happiness that she can choose to cherish or not.
And I know, both dasao and Boon will choose the former.
I had an awesome chat with her.
This chat started from after my school end, to now (we're on Skype).
I guess Boon is really jealous of me.
But, willingly, I don't mind taking his place in NS, just so that he can be with dasao.
=) , because selfishly, I would rather go through a tormenting physical training, than a torturing emotional suffering.

I have been thinking about calling him.
For a few days, week rather.
His date of entry to NS is nearing, Valentine is coming, and his birthday is just right after it too.
I finally mustered the courage to called him up today, putting away fear of facing rejection.
I don't think anyone can understand the feeling I had when I finally hear his voice.

After that chat, I feel encouraged, although he never did encouraged me much.
I feel motivated, to finish what I didn't have the mood to.
And at that moment, I know, forgiveness is the key to happiness.

Querido, I know you wouldn't see this but, take care of yourself when you are in NS.
I will be praying for your safety and health.
It's been a long time since I saw you, hope you have completed your 2010 resolution to grow fatter and taller.
=) , may all be smooth for you!

/AnnWai.