You fell asleep without tell me what time you wanna wake up while waiting for my reply.
I called you when it's time.
I was joking with you.
Trying to let you know how insecure I am, what you gave me was raising your voice at me, obvious change of tone, and saying you weren't.
Then came your forte of keeping mute.
Do you know why I feel insecure this morning?
Speaking about being a bitch.
Who is?
The boy who lies to her girlfriend to watch porn?
Or the girl who reminds her boyfriend not to watch it as a joke.
The boy who keeps quiet because he's dulan?
Or the girl who rants because she's upset?
The boy who never even say sorry for upsetting the girl?
Or the girl who cries because she upset?
The guy who doesn't even bother to call back?
Or the girl who hung up on him?
The guy who don't even bother to coax her?
Or the girl waiting for him to call back?
I tell everyone I am tired all the time.
And that I am sick of us fighting.
Guess what?
I mean it this fucking time.
I am sick of fighting with you.
Sick of fighting for us, for you, for the future you keep saying you'll have but not putting enough effort to achieve.
I'll see if you call back to me again.
You are gonna be on the train to work.
You know that I am upset.
If you love me, you'll call.
A guy who really love his girl don't have to ask HOW to coax her.
He'll knows.
If I don't see you making an effort, I'll know.
I am not threatening you or what.
I am just trying to let you know, in the face.
That I am tired of putting in so fuckong much effort.
I am sick of being the cancer that heals you.
So fuck off if you cannot handle my sensitivity and emotions.
Really.
I am sick and sick.
If you get what I mean.
Jason, I'm tired.
So yea.
If you love me.
Find me.
If not.
I guess I won't beg for you anymore.
Forget about the 1st year real life anniversary.
We are struggling too much.
Struggling more than we can take.
I give up.
I hate to be the one calling you back.
I hate to be the one waiting for you to call.
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